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finally-home-in-dreams:

*Edits not mine, credit for them and the quotes to kaungi

Ethereal ((Candlelight))
“Out of all the things Luhan loved most, the first he lost was Sehun.”
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“2012. With you.
2013. With you.
2014. With you.
2015. Without you.”
It is snowing, white flakes falling all around, like feathers.
The streets of Seoul are bustling with joy, shop windows glowing softly with light.
Everywhere he turns, couples whisper and giggle.
Everywhere he looks, there is happiness abound.
But why is he so alone?
Why is he alone and sad?
He looks up at the sky.
How the stars twinkle, but not for him.
He looks down at the ground.
Soft orange lamplight illuminates the snow.
But not for him.
He looks through the snow, still falling, like feathers.
And sees him.
“Sehun, how are you?”
Sehun doesn’t know what to say.
“Sehun, I’m sorry.”
Sehun doesn’t know how to respond.
“Sehun, I love you.”
Sehun feels tears welling in his eyes.
“Sehun, do you love me?”
“I love you!”
Sehun lurches forward.
“Sehun, I lost you.”
Sehun falls to his hands and knees.

Sehun is alone in the night.
Light descends in a halo around him.
Snowflakes spiral down to settle on his back.
He becomes a monument in the darkness.
He clenches his fists, squeezes his eyes shut.
The ground is cold.
But his heart is colder.
“Luhan, can you hear me?”
Silence.
“Luhan, I love you.”
Silence.
“Luhan, please…”
Silence, then,
“Only for you.”
Hot tears spill onto the frozen sidewalk, melting the ice.
“Hyung…”
“Sehun…”
Sehun dares to look up, through hazy tears.
Luhan is smiling at him.
Gently, sadly.
He reaches out, and fades into the cold night air.
And all that is left is wavering Christmas Eve candlelight.

Sehun had always been fragile.
Luhan had known that, and had strengthened him with his laughter.
Briefly, briefly.
But beautiful things are swift, and Luhan is soon gone.
And Sehun is broken.
Because of Luhan.
Luhan, his beautiful Luhan.
Love is ruthless, beautiful but ruthless.
Love can destroy, and love can kill.
And Luhan had shattered him.
“Countless nights spent without you.”